By The Pale Moon Light

 This moon spoke to me tonight. 

It really did!

Ok, so obviously it wasn’t a conscious conversation with words and rhetorical thoughts being passed back and forth... but it probably spoke to me more than any of those words could have. 

I am a Mom. I am a wife. I am a full time employee. I am a chef. I am a custodian. I am a friend. I am a hugger. I am a boo-boo kisser. I am an ear to listen. I am a disciplinarian. I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am a Granddaughter (in-law). I am a woman. And I am me. 

All of the good, the bad, the ugly, and the beautiful. I am just that: me. 

Sometimes I get so lost in being all of those first thoughts/positions, that I lose the latter, and sometimes more important, position of just being myself. 

I have changed over the years. I can sometimes change daily. Something even within minutes of an experience or a word that’s been spoken. But never the less, I am me. 

I believe (and know) that I am not alone in feeling a bit lost sometimes. This world is hard. These days are difficult. The hours can feel so long. The changes happen so fast that we can lose our sense of “self” without even realizing it. 

There are days that the smallest thing seems huge. The mundane can be the darkest place for our wild heart and yearning for a piece of “me” can scream louder than one million decibels. 

But we wake up, sometimes just looking up, and realize that we deserve some grace. Just an ounce of forgiveness for feeling so lost and forgetting who “me” is. Reminding ourselves that finding “me” in a pale moon is ok. It’s just fine to be the Mom, wife, employee, chef, custodian, friend, hugger, boo-boo kisser, listener, disciplinarian, daughter, sister, Granddaughter, woman, and everything in between... as long as you can still manage to find the “me” in between. 

So what does it take? For me. It was a pale moon between two grain bins on an evening after working, an esthetician appointment, beautiful sun shining, baking, cleaning, baseball, and a little bit of time with friends. 

Things change. Life changes. And so do we... just take a moment to appreciate the evolution and current position of “me” once in a while along the way.